This “closing the gap” idea has been reoccurring in my life lately. It started with my anxiety about the whirlwind of crap I’ve been organized in my brain like work, graduation, future plans, eating clean, working out, praying, faith, family, friends, relationships money, appearance etc. I realize that the root of my anxiety stems from the chaotic combination these earthly factors have with the soul searching, “to be or not be”, type of banter that goes on in my head….imagine inescapable elevator music that sounds familiar but is too low to make out the words…but you’re SO sure you know it! Too bad you can’t sing along. Yep that’s how I feel. Now back to this “to be or not to be” stuff. (Who am I? What do I want for myself? Who will I become? How do I find balance of mind, body and spirit?) La laaaa la la la laaaaa la laa la la! -_- (oh no it’s the elevator music again) All of these inner-self questions have something in common and that is “I”! In my mandatory speech class I was half paying attention when my instructor touched on a topic I couldn’t ignore. She lectured about closing the gap between who you say you are and who you actually are. I looked into this and curved it to be more fitting to my own current reality. Instead of making yet another spastic to-do list with every task/goal I’ve ever created, I cleared the canvas and set a new goal that will, in time, lead me to where I want to be. ( wherever that is). My focus is to lead my everyday actions in a direction towards closing the gap between who am I and who I want to be along with what impact I would like to have on my surroundings and vice versa. For motivation I wrote “close the gap” on a whiteboard in my bedroom. A dear friend of mine asked me to explain what it meant and when I did he frantically showed me an excerpt from a book he was reading. ( laughable side note: before grabbing the book he actually gasped and then mumbled “Da Vinci code” ) haha But there it was again, this idea of “Closing the gap”. Boom Boom POW. I’m definitely running with this one. Luckily, because this is MY life journey, there is no formula for this equation or map route leading to my congruent self. All I really know is that certain actions bring me positivity and feed progressive thoughts and in those thoughts I find happiness. I’m working towards trusting my instincts and listening to the happy place in my heart and mind. Hooray to a new mental stepping stone! I’m on my way – oh and this is a doodle of my third eye. He’s also about to graduate and is feeling a little weird. ^_^
As a working and full time college kid I don’t really have extra time in the morning to whip up gluten free vegan pancakes from scratch in the cramped kitchen of my hobbit hole apartment. This week I tried Vans pancakes. I could pronounce all the ingredients listed so I figured it wouldn’t kill me.
Here is a picture of the box. I’ve eaten the waffles before and they were a win so I made my purchase in high hopes.
I was happy with the result! Below is my breakfast the past two mornings. I cover the pancakes in soy yogurt and fruit, agave nectar, chia seeds. The yogurt is so sweet it’s like I’m eating a cake!
Brought my lunch to school today. I literally threw a bunch of things in some snap-ware and drizzled dressing on top. Shake shake shazaam baby. Never waste leftovers. I’m too frugal for that. You save a lot of money in the long run by packing food. I also had an apple, a banana and a Luna über sticky bun bar in my backpack. Healthy choices happen one bite at a time. Those bites turn into meals and those meals spread out over weeks that turn into months and then you look in the mirror one day and get to be like “damn girl, I see you!” Hahahaha
– Spring Mix
– Gluten free granola
– Cold Broccoli and tofu leftovers from my dinner last night
– Annie papaya poppyseed dressing
Today I ran about four miles and it felt like a struggle. Around Christmas time I could manage four easily but I haven’t been managing my time to prioritize my running goals! But the whole point is I am still happy I gave it a go! As I was running today I thought about the beauty in potential. I appreciate the individuality and uniqueness of all humanity because we each get to draw our own finish line wherever and whenever we want. I have a goal to run a half marathon…and whether that happens next year or next month is completely up to me! That is an awesome feeling. I am my greatest competition and that goes for anyone. I often see my friends getting caught up worrying about what other people and are doing and they as if they have to match up or do better. That is not going to bring you fulfillment at all. It probably does just the opposite and sucks life right out of you! Do what you love at your own pace and take your time and let your potential unfold into a kinetic masterpiece. I dare you. I believe in you. Set a goal and don’t wait on other people to give you permission to work towards greatness. You have to realize you are already great…it’s inside of you waiting to take flight. It’s your call! Always keep going, take breaks if needed as long as you don’t ever stop.
– Tavia Rahki
My breakfast this morning was so messy I had to put the whole glass jar into a bowl to catch everything. I’ve been so overwhelmed lately and making this was almost therapeutic and I felt amazing after eating it.
1 cup cream of buckwheat
1 cup of rolled oats
juiced (1/2 a beet, two medium carrots, ginger, 1/4 pineapple, five or six sticks of rhubarb)
Glop everything into a cute jar and then add your favorite granola.
I used KIND blueberry vanilla clusters
Oh how I missed the beach! I haven’t been in a while. This weekend I went to Miami for my pals birthday celebration! Just the two of us (we like it that way)! The sun truly is soothing and the salty ocean feels so nice; Nature’s invitation for relaxation. It’s sad to think how little I find time to enjoy moments when they happen. I’m constantly planning and doing work for my future aspirations. Just staring at my toes in the sand made me smile. I needed that. Take time for yourself, it matters and makes a real difference in your mood and attitude towards life. I will be encouraging myself and my loved ones to push the pause button every now and then to appreciate life’s current situations. It’s a huge plus that I got to have a great weekend with someone I don’t get too see often. Gahhh happy giggles all around!!!!
Meet my vegan protein powder! This past week I’ve transitioned from mixing it with vanilla to chocolate almond milk. Of course the plant based supplement would be in the option of “vanilla chai” ….I wish I could be present when companies talk about these types of decisions…my guess is it went like this:
“yea those hippie people love chai tea, let’s make a powder like that and they’ll just have to love it”
as dramatic as it sounds, this girl right here is pretty much my everything. she’s my oldest and closest companion. The exciting news it that this gorgeous pod of sunshine is engaged and ecstatic! We walked past a really cute bridal shop and decided to explore. This is the first dress she’s tried on!
I love her so much and it was delightful seeing her so happy, no one deserves it more. (hopefully she never sees this post or finds my blog because she HATES social media and anything online hahaha) and of course I have been granted the title Maid of Honor. I remember when we were like 13 and would say “One day when you get married…blah blah” Well that one day is in reach and I am thankful that she is still my best friend.